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chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
















evolution


does


not


make


sense


without


horizontal


gene


transfer




that


is


substantial


cross


species


gene coding


transfers
















if


you


get


all


compacted


and


contracted


you


have


to


let


infinity


unwind


you
















if


it


was


given


to


you


a


choice


that


you


got


quite


a

bit


less

out


of


sex


but


could


write


better


homilies


which


would


you


take ?
















i


don't


mind


criticism


but


i have


yet


to see


it


come


out


of


depth


and


not


the


shallowness

of


irritation
















writing


homilies


its


an


alignment


of


the


brain


and


theres


nothing


you


can


do


about it
















poor


eileen


  homilies


out


of


reach


;o)





eileens reply



his


homily


stung


like


a


school


yard


chant


;o)





my reply



that reply is good but its a poem


which is quite interesting


what


the


difference


is
















little


shades


of


meaning


make


a


big


difference


in


clarity
















with


homilies


you


have


to


stitch


them


together


100%
















its


really


wierd


some-one


in


100


years


may


be


writing


a


refutation


of


my


work
















“ i


want


to


talk


about


god ”




“ if


you

were


in


india


which


god


would


you


be


talking


about ? ”




“ the


one


god ”




“ well


one


god


is


two ”




“ i


don't


understand ”




“ ask


god


then ”
















flattery


is


the


sincerest


form


of


imitation
















i

am


extremely


sane


if


i


appear


insane


its


only


because


you

are


burdened


with


the


insanity


of


the


world




its


not


a

new


philosophical


position


schopenhauer


nietzsche




in


part


malign


in


part


distracted


attention
















 my


 homilies


 are


 sinuous


 and


 sleek


 like


 an


otter


 at


 home


 in


 the


water


 of


meaning









by eileen and andrew



















everything


      i


   do


   is


     utterly


       pointless




             i


          don't


        exactly


      know


   why
















no-one


reads


what


i


write




if


some-one


read


it




i'd


worry


it


wouldn't


be


good


enough
















the


world


is


dumbing


down


by


the


minute
















religion


opinions


of


misinformation
















the


seeds


of


failure


are


sown


in the


hubris


of


success
















writers


and


alcoholism




or


drugs




is


like


fish



and




water
















writers


have


doomed


lives




and


great


writers




have


particularly




greatly


doomed




lives
















sleep


is


a


gradual


shutting


down


of


the


brain
















things


can


sorta


change




      something


    can


  happen




  an


absolute


certainty




then


much


later


it


doesn't




it


has


moved on
















the


whole


efficacy


of


films


books


and


videos


is


we


accept


them


as


true


but


they


can


be


very


untrue




its


because


they


directly


come

into


perception



but


they

are


in fact


synthetic


and

synthesis


can


be


any


unholy


brew


though


very

occasionally


can


be


holy
















religion

is

a

form

of


escapism



though


its


going


from


one



form



of



prison



to



another
















i


suppose


advertising


is


an


extreme


of


commerical


fiction
















the

average

american

female


is


a


particularly



toxic



species
















commercial


fiction


is


of


necessity


escapism




since

people


want


to

escape


reality




and

not

feel

it




once


  you


    don't


      want


         to


           escape


it


and


are


prepared


to


feel


it




then


things


look


different




and


fiction


 except


 in


 one


 or


 two


 instances



  is



  no



   longer


   interesting
















in


the


end


i was


singularly


unsuccessful


at


whatever


i


did


so


i


thought


why


not


do


something


doomed


from


the


outset




so


i

started


writing

















the


roads


of


investigation


are


inordinately


long




but




they




end
















the


trouble


is


so


few


people


step


up


to


the


game




that


is




writing


homilies
















editors


are


like

pyschiatrists


some


sort


of


species


of


dill
















phenol


hell


where-in


i


lie


waiting


to


die


or




get


better  ;o)
















editors


 have crimped


brains




show


me


one


who


  hasn't !
















i


write


for


eternity


not


twits
















unknown


in


my


own


lifetime


plagiarized


in


every


lifetime


thereafter




thats


about


the


way


it


goes
















in terms


of


infinity


praise


just doesn't


cut


the


ice


there


is


just


the


knowing


it


and


knowing


what


it


is


and


that


is


all
















god


botherers



bother


me

















a


religious


view


point


is


only


possible


if


you


don't


look


around




and


keep


the


blinkers


on
















religion


is


not


real


it


is


a mirror


image


of


reality
















pyschiatrists


are


crazier


than


the


patients
















God


abhors


crowds




where


there


is


a


crowd




or


even


two


or


three




there


is


not


god




that


is


why



religion



is



false
















there


are


no


answers


there


is


no fixed position


everything


is


ceaselessly


changing


todays


answer


is


tomorrows


question


and


yesterdays


gestation
















the


really


crazy


they


know


it


and


it


doesn't


bother


them


and


they


are


not


interested


in

changing it

















all


i get


when


i


hear

people


missionize

is


they


are


full


of


themselves




blind


to


poetry


and


philosophical


reasoning




bowerbirds


on the make

















I


don't


have ms


but feel I


am a bit that way
















the


purpose


of


women




is


the


management


of


men




and


the


raising


of


children
















i


am


  integral


with


  infinity
















aging


to


a very


large


extent


is


an


evolutionarily


programmed


process


which


is


hard


to

accept

















university


english


literature


departments




pits


of


conformity
















a


bird




in


the


hand


is


 enough




to

 handle
















the


most


valuable


skill


for


a poet


is


to


be


mono


lingual




multilingual


costs


you


proficiency


in


english
















i


think


the


internet


is


the


destruction


of


the


social


coherence


of

the


broadcast


technologies
















i


would


define


fascism

a

s

the


total


concentration


of


power


in the hands


of


one


or


two


people


stalin,


hitler


mao tse tung


kim jong il


its


a


modern invention because


that


degree of control requires electrical communications
















the


far


left


and


the far right


are


just


different


forms


of


fascism
















murray


died




where


did


he


go ?




or


did


a

universe


cease ?
















robinson


jeffers


is


an


acquired


taste


but


once


you


understand


him




he's


good

















writing


 an


endless


  formless


  field


   of


 developing
















when


writing


intrudes


 on


sleep




 i


 think


sleep


should


come


  first




  but


  writing


   does




  just  


  greed



  for 



  something



    i 



  guess   































jesus


christ !

 i


had


something


  to


  write




   and


   completely


    forgot


     i t !
















if


its


hard


to


see


what


ug


 krishnamurti


was


on


about


all


his


life



 i


 think


 i


 see


 now



 there


 is


 just


 nothing
















 einstein


was


dysfunctionally


 semantic


   pragmatic


    about



     “ god ”




     and




     quantum




     mechanics
















if


you


look


at


the


 life


 of


 any


 ' so


  called '



  genius


   their


   life


    is


   full


    of


   extreme


   stupidity
















sex


itself


is


so

violent




since


we


live


constantly


under


its


impress




no


wonder


life


is


like


it


is!




you


are


splitting


yourself


and


making


a


new


being


with


50%


of


another
















  don't


    be


  a


writer



it


brings


poverty




why?




they


 think


  there


  are


  more


    important


      things


         than


            money
















no


 i'm


 not


  a


 genius




  i


 don't


 want


  to


 be


  so


 limited
















how


can


genius


and


stupidity


go


together ?




but


they


do



I


don't


think


great


genius


is


possible




without


great


stupidity
















universities


are


an


artifact


of


libaries


and


printing




with


the


net




their


need


decoheres
















educational


software ?


the


net


is


educational


software !
















i'm


never


going

to


eat


five


wallaby


brains


again




the


homilies


just


pour


forth




i


can't


stop


writing !
















can


people


die


before


they


die?




they




can




and



do
















to


the


sane


person




schizophrenia


hurts
















you


have


the


wrong


idea


about


why


you


write


a


poem




some


little trinket


for


appearances


sake




its


a


form


of


memory


for


your


recall




you


are


not


prepared


to


be


yourself


warts


and


all




which


is


what


poetry


is




almost


;o)
















as


you


get


older


its


like


the


shackles


drop


from


your


eyes




how


false


everything


is
















zen


and


buddhism


are


the


cultural


claptrap


of


another


culture


as

i

f

christianity


wasn't


enough !
















the


only


way


to


progress


is


to


deny


god


its


just


cultural


claptrap
















frightened


of


death

and


not


frightened


of


killing


themselves
















do


i


ever


get


lonely ?




only


around


people








by eileen



















you


can


get


arrested


for


thinking


originally




seems


to


put


people


in


a

deep


state


of


shock




against


which


they


can


react




viciously
















poetry

is


a


muse


that


seduces
















work


in


the


right


direction


does


get


you


somewhere




even if


that


direction

is


at


times


hard


to


tell
















the


interesting


thing

about


“ science ”
is


the


degree


it


works


despite


being


run


by


humans
















time


passes


who


stays


who


goes


is


a bit


of


a mystery
















we


exist


before


the


world


when


we


cease


the


world


ceases


and


the


ceasing


ceases


yet


does


not


cease
















hi  minna


yeah as years pass there looks less and less reason for everything


no


blame,  just the weirdness of the ever onward


moving stream with


its


changing views
















humans


can't


help

their


emotionality
















this


is


all


about


“ how


are


things


really ? ”


it

is

definitely


not


a

promotion


of


“ men


are


better

than


women ”


men


are

inferior
















you might be interested in schopenhauer on women


listen to  part 2  first


part 1


its


all


pretty


 predatory


some


women


just


have


more


sense


than


others


thats


all
















this


writing


is


the


most


valuable


thing


i


can


do


yet


its


worthless



:~~o(
















stupidity


is


a

characteristic


of


nature


that


is


it


represents


what


happens


with


shortfalls


of


attention




there


is


no


answer


it


inheres


to


reality


often


personally


:o)
















 real


versus


the


 unreal
















people


look


an

inch


in


front


of


their noses




a


genius


looks


a foot




one


without


categories




has


no -


one


to




look.
















an


exercise


in


futility




father


 Lobos
















schizophrenic


beliefs


implanted


  as


 a


child


remain


and


steer


the


adult
















philosophy


is


an


existential


dialogue
















i


think


women


value


what

they


have


much


more


than



men



which


is


why


they


can


be trepidatious


about the


future




men

as


a rule


are


too


blasι


about


tomorrow
















the


problem


with


heidegger


is


if


the leading


philosopher


of


the era


supports


the


nazi


party


and

is


anti


semetic




you


are


not


going


to


get


a

lot


of

intellectual


resistance


are


you




yet


his


own


wife


cuckholded him
















in


general


people


are


too


busy


with


their


own


self


importance


to

be


aware


of


or


interested


in


much


else
















charles


bukowski


was

a

revelation!


he


just writes


what


he


felt


like




it


doesn't


have


to


be


some


shimmering


glitter
















a lot


of


what


is


called


christianity


is


in


fact

atheism


why


believe


when


you


can


see


in


fact


all


religion


is

the


most

profound

distrust


of


a


higher


power


which


is


why


you


have


the


ridiculous


belief


systems
















everything


is


evolution


there


is


a constant


becoming


with


no


beginning

or


end
















receivership


underpins


economic


rationality


because


then


mismanagement


is


visited


with


consequences




part


of


the


problem


with


sharemarkets


during


booms

is


when


new


funds


support


underlying


mismanagement
















the


reason


for


capitalism


or


the


allowance


or


forcing


of


bankruptcy


is


that


most


people


are


not


economically


rational


either


it


works


or


it


doesn't
















what


i


object


to


about


“ alice ”


is


that


lewis


carroll's


work


has


become


set


within


an


asinine


fantasy


tableaux
















recursion


is


odd


you


say


it


then


its


not
















the


fertile


phase


of


my


life


has


ended


i


will


write


this


drivel


forever
















life


only


has


meaning


if


you


live


forever
















endless


writing


sorta


infinity


quite


prosaic


really

















sometimes


i

write


stuff


i


don't


agree


with
















there


is


no


hierarchy


of


poets.




good


bad


less


useful




some


can


be


all

three




others


can


be


all


three




me


i


don't


know
















imax


can


go


suck


an


egg




i

already


know


what


3d


looks


like
















maybe


we


look


at


each


other


without


much


hope


in


our


eyes
















 alice


its


like


so


much


now




technically


superb




intellectually


cruddy




the


complexity



of




lewis


carroll



set



to



20th century



puerile



fantasy
















everything

  is

asynchronous




mismatches




between




how

 and

when




and




why




its


a



bastard



of


a


world
















death


 creeps


 up


 like


  a


corpse


 in


 an


 overcoat


 or


 a


 plein


 air


 painting


 asynchronous


 with


 taste


 and


 sense




 yes


 its


 like


 this




 or


 its


 not



death
















male


 and


female


 are


more


different


 than


any


species
















unsurprisingly


everyone


has


a


belief


in


their


own


lives
















there


must


be


more


to


life


than


the


laura


bingle


break-up


with


michael


clarke




not


according


to


the


newspapers
















my


life


has


been


a

reading


and


watching


dream
















murdock


has


the


net


wrong




he


doesn't


understand


it




you


can't


compel


people


on


the


net



senile


old


fool
















i


have


a

sort


of

a


vanity


not


that


i


am


motivated enough to ever do anything to


suit it


but

if


by chance


it


is


flattered


then


i


am


pleased
















you may


feel


specially


selected


and


unique


and


are


are


that


lots


of


people


may


feel that


about themselves


but

they

are


not


that
















english


lit


classes


taught


by


sheep


to


be


sheep
















you


have


the


basic


conflict


of


the


artistic


life


which


is


doing


what


you


want


and


the total disinterest


and inability


of


the world


to


cope


with anything

authentic


let


alone

paying


for


it


rather


crucifixion


is


the


payment
















why


is


society


so


sheepish


these


days ?



they


are


not


like sheep


they


are


sheep
















the


world


is


full


of


toads


and


twits



topped


off


with


gits
















my


life


is


so


quiet


i


had


a fly


in the house this


evening


on


dusk


i


opened the door


and


went


out


side


i


heard him fly


by


as


he


went out
















women


are


creatures


of


feeling


without


much


control


over


what


they


want


with


plenty


of


control


over


the


ways


to


get


it


though
















i


am


so


tired


yet


cannot


sleep
















for

some

reason

i

expect

people

to

agree

with

me

all

the

time

and

applaud

me


it

will

never

happen


but

still

i

seem



to


expect


it



self


is


stranger


than


alice


through


the


looking


 glass
















what


is


love




i


can't


see




myself


in


relation



to


it




thats


the


problem
















 trapped


by


love
















one


of


the


problems


with


the health


scene


is


its


inherent


schizophrenia
















never in


history


before


has


there


been such


a misalignment


between what


we


need

to


learn


and


natural


behaviors
















optimism


is


a mood


for


which


theres


no


rationale
















a


problem


some


people


have


especially


as


they


get


older


is


seeing


the world


as

it


suits them


and


then


planning


on


that




of


course


it


doesn't


happen
















everything


new


you


think


you


have


learnt


before


but


you


get


punished


all


over


again
















   the


   human


   brain


   is


  traumatised


     by

   change


   or


  the


 need


   to


    go


     in


  a


different


direction



  don't


  hold


  it


  against


  me !
















intellectual


crippling



by


limited




horizons




pretty




much




the



norm
















i


think


one


of


the


reasons


one


writes


ones


own


poetry


is


that


nothing


else


is


intense


enough
















 billy


is


like


amber


not


necessarily


malevolent


just chronic


one


way


people


users


with


no


reciprocation


of


help

or


effort


to


support


their


breeding


behavior
















true intelligence begins


with


being


self


taught
















theres


a


fundamental


question


with


volunteer


effort


as


to


wether


the


end


is


worthy
















reading


the


story


of


van


goghs


last


months


in


 auvers


is deeply


dispiriting




theres


something


really


depressing


about


volunteer


work


supporting


what


is


not


worthwhile
















i


feel


like


i


am


at


equipoint


from


everywhere
















yes


finally


i


am


feeling


disenchanted


with


the web!


why


lines turn


into

circles
















two


contradictions


can


be


true
















suicide


to


police


“ what


will


you


do?


hang


me


for


murdering


myself ? ”
















van goghs


last


paintings

are

too


depressing


you


can


actually


see

it


all


the


black


leaking


through
















anyone


who


puts


in


a

couple


of hours


a day

in


a

constructive


way


on


the


internet


is


far


better


educated


than


anyone


coming


out


of


the


school


system
















the


use


of


contradictions


to


express


something
















there


is


an


infinite


amount


of


finesse


in


the


BCD™


and


compendium™
















its


very


hard


to


get


that


what


is


beyond


is


more


than


what


is
















if


theres


one


thing


women


don't


like


thats


being


told


they


are


damaged


or


worst


still

proved

















feeling


really


well


is


not


necessarily


the


best


state


of


health
















how


would


the


world


be


if


van


gogh


had


never


painted ?




a


lot


better


for


van


gogh !
















i

want


to


be


somewhere


without


boundaries
















yeah i am like that, see it first then don't see it then as i get beaten around the head see it again
















effete


diseased


words


fail


me


well


they


don't


really


but


you


get


the message





  review
















he


sorta


knows


everything


useless


thats


me
















lifes


just


one


long


summer


dream


i


think


thats


what


i

want


:o)
















its


so


hard


to


unwind


one


wrong


idea
















what


is


  science ?


  “ knowledge ”


   “ a type of knowledge ”
















evolution


delicate


brains


are


selected


out


intelligence


is


no


longer


selected


in


:o(